What Will Today Bring?

That is what I think to myself each day as I wake and take stock of the time and where the husband is. Today he was asleep initially, got up once to visit the bathroom, and then went back to bed until nearly 10 am. Even Mom was wondering about him and asked me how he was – was he alive?

As I watched him get out of bed, he told me he wanted to see David Kelling, the chiropractor. He was pretty sure that what he ate the night before was not good for him. He had decided that the meatballs must have had pork in them and he wanted to find out if David knew how long it would take for him to purge himself of the effects. The effects had mostly to do with his fatigue, and sleeping longer than usual. “Clean” and “unclean” has increased relevance to him since watching one of the TBN preachers on the subject.

He decided that fasting was the order of the day for him, but he did want to pray with me for the meal I was having for breakfast. He remarked about how different it was for him to be praying for my breakfast, but his fast – that it would be a good one. For several minutes I was able to distract him with news of people we had known in Florida, but soon we were back on the subject of health, only it was now my health. According to his observation I thrash around in my sleep a lot, and he is unable to wake me lately, to get me to stop.

Behind this topic is his supposition that I have REM sleep disorder, which means I’m just like him only a few years behind in my progress. My symptoms should move me to take more magnesium, quickly.

He was able to sit and lift one leg up onto the opposite knee without using his hands to pull it up. He is doing this the last couple of days, meaning that he is improving his strength and flexibility. Everything he does better than the day before is because his therapies are working. Everything he does worse is because of something he did wrong – the wrong supplement, the wrong food, not enough exercise… The fluctuations are never because of LBD and its usual course. Sometimes he looks sad and he may be thinking of the LBD, but he does not acknowledge it.

I looked at his blood pressure log yesterday and noticed that he hasn’t recorded anything since 12 days ago. This was an obsession not too long ago, needing to be done every time he “felt” any change. I don’t know if he’s forgotten or if he believes his pressure is normal now and no longer needs to be monitored – since he stopped taking all his medications. Yes, he did that. Dr. Chambers told him it wasn’t the smartest thing to do since he still had some high readings and having a stroke would put an end to all his other therapies. He didn’t agree. He is getting better.

In spite of getting better, he has come out for help putting on his shirt, and just came out to tell me what a terrible time he had putting a different belt through his belt loops while trying to keep his shorts on.

He has taken to heart what he heard from another preacher on TV, about being selfless and thinking of others. Twice this week he has insisted upon riding in the back seat of the car and letting Mom have the front. He makes sure it gets talked about.

It’s All Connected

3-30-2019

This is a list of links to articles that the husband has been reading and discussing with his brother for the last couple of months. I intend to read them one or two at a time and try to summarize what they mean, in addition to what they mean to him.

His research often starts with a symptom he’s experiencing and trying to understand. He uses google on his phone and reads, then he forwards the link to his brother who is a retired university biologist. One article will lead him to another one, and there is always a connection to be made to the next thing. Sometimes I can see his reasoning and other times I think he’s stretching things a bit. A common thread is that he believes many of his symptoms have something to do with magnesium deficiency.

Magnesium is needed for so many functions on the cellular lever that a deficiency could affect any organ system in the body. He believes correcting the deficiency could reverse the damage in the brain that causes diseases like AD and LBD. That’s what he’s trying to do.

http://www.LBDA.org  The Lewy Body Dementia Association, nonprofit, national

https://www.aging-us.com/article/100690/text#fulltext This is the article about reversal of cognitive decline that gives the husband hope

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2018/06/27/autophagy-health-benefits.aspx?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=facebookmercola_ranart&utm_campaign=20190205_autophagy-health-benefits  about autophagy

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11850416/  this is where the interest in magnesium began

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2011/01/110110103832.htm all about nitric oxide’s influence, enhance NO may prevent inflammation

https://www.fasebj.org/doi/abs/10.1096/fasebj.31.1_supplement.1035.4 he tries to figure out why eating cheese gives him a sensation in his head

http://milkgenomics.org/article/magnesium-milk-overlooked-mineral/ about how milk is a good source of magnesium and how magnesium has to be present for vitamin D to be processed

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/1390610/ soy beverages decrease the bioavailability of Mg and Ca

https://sciencing.com/red-clay-22940.html red clay interest him, however magnesium levels are low in clay because of leaching

https://draxe.com/10-bentonite-clay-benefits-uses/  the uses and actions of bentonite clay, a source of magnesium and a chelating agent for heavy metals

https://www.drperlmutter.com/bone-broth-benefits/  nutrients in bone broth such as collagen and other proteins contribute to skin health and gut health

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/10454449/  magnesium and autonomic cardiovascular regulation, hypertension

https://mail.google.com/mail/ca/u/0/#starred/FMfcgxwBVzsNPrgBfflvCRmRJSpkvsfg?projector=1&messagePartId=0.1  pdf of magnesium rich foods

https://www.thoughtco.com/laughter-therapy-verse-of-the-day-66-701910 laughter promotes health, use in relieving depression

https://www.rnareset.com/products/remag-magnesium-solution?variant=13899661319 magnesium in a more bioavailable form from Dr. Carolyn Dean – ReMag

http://researchpub.org/journal/jbpr/number/vol1-no2/vol1-no2-2.pdf Rapamycin and autophagy as potential treatments for AD

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4203545/ autophagy contributes to limiting viral

pathogens

https://mail.google.com/mail/ca/u/0/#starred/FMfcgxwBVzrDtTxvLjhzbxfQDNnddRxD?projector=1&messagePartId=0.1 dietary buffers for dairy cattle – no clue why this is relevant

https://triggered.clockss.org/ServeContent?rft_id=info:doi/10.1124/mi.8.5.2 the brain, PTSD, TBI

https://mail.google.com/mail/ca/u/0/#starred/FMfcgxwBVzrCxWxJpDWHlDzrwLfNNQrV?projector=1&messagePartId=0.1 this is a good one on magnesium deficiency, why it’s widespread and dangerous.

https://www.dietdoctor.com/renew-body-fasting-autophagy doctor get Nobel Prize for discoveries about autophagy. Fasting and autophagy to rid body of damaged/broken cellular components

https://www.healio.com/optometry/nutrition/news/print/primary-care-optometry-news/%7Bf857ffe3-f195-4455-9040-4f353e311c9b%7D/pilot-study-data-indicate-macular-degeneration-responds-to-nutrition the role of nutrition and supplementation in macular degeneration

https://draxe.com/varicose-veins/ Varicose veins, home remedies and nutritional advice

https://www.viviscal.com/hair-care/magnesium-for-hair-growth/ magnesium deficiency can lead to hair loss and scalp problems, dietary and supplemental Mg can have positive effect on hair growth

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2017/11/26/fasting-powerful-metabolic-therapy.aspx magnesium for maximum heart health

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZFa-yw3znE Dr. Carolyn Dean on magnesium

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDAjQFPiAIs&feature=youtu.be Dr. Carolyn Dean on fibromyalgia and CFS

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4455825/#__sec7title Magnesium basics, importance of Mg in numerous body functions

He’s a Scientist

3-11-2019

Shortly after I came down with this cold that’s making me miserable, the husband started something very similar, but of course, he doesn’t have a cold. He is going through a phase of autophagy, clearing out the trash and hopefully getting rid of some Lewy bodies. He thinks it’s not a cold because his nasal drainage is clear. I’m skeptical, as always. Looks like a cold to me. His magnesium therapy is the cure all for everything, if you believe all that he says.

Last night I went back through my emails and wrote down all the papers and research articles he’s sent me over the last five or six weeks – 27 in all, none of which have I read. I intend to read some but I guess I’m reacting somewhat negatively to his obsessive behavior and preoccupation with his sickness. I get overwhelmed. Every conversation with him ends up connected to his health, his therapies, his symptoms. He is emphatic about supposed changes that he experiences, many of which are questionable. It goes beyond his own experience when he decides that everyone will benefit from his therapies by doing the same thing he is doing.

I am toying with the idea of going to Seattle for a short visit, not that I want to travel, but because I want Esther (daughter) to know I care about her. Birthday week is coming up and it’s always hard to spend it alone with no fanfare. I’m not sure I should leave Mom to deal with the husband by herself. She is sensitive to his plight and feels bad that she doesn’t want to listen to all the things he wants to talk about. I’m not sure how to communicate to him how he would have to change in order that she feel comfortable. I tried but now I think he is feeling awkward, that maybe Mom doesn’t like him very much. I wish there were someone he could go live with for a few days while I’m gone.

He needs help all the time. Not for complicated things but for small stuff, like putting spaghetti in a dish and heating it up in the microwave. He gets “fog” and can’t think what to do if the spaghetti noodles are cold and stuck together. It frustrates him.

I was asking him to cut his fingernails recently. When I see them so long that they look like girl fingernails it really repels me, so I get the clippers out, ask him if he will do it, and then wait. I asked him if there was anything about the job that made it hard for him to want to do it regularly. He seemed genuinely happy to tell me that it was hard for him to see what he was doing, and hard for him to press the clippers hard enough to get the job done. I clipped them for him.  I also shaved him last week since he was having a hard time getting all the whiskers and would leave them in weird places, quite visible. Some of these things wouldn’t be so hard if he would keep up with them on a regular basis, but he doesn’t have a habit of doing that.

Yesterday he was very emotional. He wanted me to know that he felt I was in a dangerous position if I were to decide to treat him like Job’s wife had treated Job. I wasn’t too thrilled to hear that comparison. He did go on to explain that he was getting a lot more sympathy for what the woman must have been experiencing and that he could see the temptation for her to lose patience.  The wrap up of this discussion had him sitting on the end of the bed, weeping, and telling me that he felt he had changed and wanted to make amends for the times that he had not been there for his family in the past. He wanted me to know and believe that he had changed. And I do believe his thinking has changed. It’s a start, but behavior is largely determined by habit.

If Dr. Carolyn Dean is correct about the magnesium deficiency that all of us are experiencing, here is the list of maladies I hope to see changing as I ingest more of it.

  • The ringing in my ears
  • The pain in my thumb joint
  • The sinus headaches
  • The funny numbness in my feet
  • The white patches on my forearms
  • The more common hypertensive readings on my BP
  • A faster recovery from this cold
  • Resolution of knee and hip problems, before the hike, please
  • Better sleep

I realize it’s all connected and very complex, but why not put it all down and watch to see what happens? Meanwhile I will do what there is to do – exercise, try to eat well, keep good hours, keep happy and avoid stress. Shoot for the moon.

A Wakeful Night

2-20-2019

Yesterday, the day of the husband’s doctor appointment, I wanted to encourage him not to be weird, not to ask the doctor to read his reams of research printouts, not to tell stories about Jimmy and Rosalyn (the Carters), not to talk about his wonderful brother who takes him seriously, and the list goes on … But when I sat down hoping to have this conversation with him he was all about his difficult night in which he lay awake from 10 pm to 3 am, hearing from God – that it was his time to write a book and share the secrets that have been revealed to him, mostly about magnesium. The title is already decided: “Wake Up and Smell the Peanut Butter”.

We did have a good talk, and we prayed about the appointment and everything else that we pray about.  I really wish he would write about his experience. That is not a crazy idea and would be interesting, but he has challenges that make it difficult. I ended up suggesting that he dictate his writing and I offered to edit it for him. He had wanted to ask that but was dramatically grateful that I offered before he had to ask. He also asked that I co -write his book, telling the story from my point of view, like Jimmy and Rosalyn did. I think he said that was God’s idea too.  (Another thing I wonder at – he emailed Linda Ronstadt to tell her the problem with her voice going away was because of magnesium deficiency.)